A CATASTROPHIC LIFE OF LIANA!!!: I'm losing her, I guess???

Even though it's the end of semester already, and I've already seen the carry marks, I still wanna write something here. You see, I'm very bad in telling somebody straight into their faces about how I feel. But I'm very good at expressing myself in writings. Another reason is, it's such a fuss and a waste of time to create a new blog. Hehe.

Here I go! Nagging myself out! I have a bestfriend. Her name is Nadiah. She is pretty, well, she have a mix blood of Indian Muslim, Pakistani, Mauritians. Imagine her yourself, but I guarantee you, she is so pretty! We've been friend since we were 8! My oh my! It have been 10 years that we've been friend! Wow! That's long enough!

The problem here, is she is going to pursue her studies in Yaman. It's a good thing though, but I will sure missed her like daft! Am I that selfish to chain her from going? To poison her mind and tell her don't go? Kidnapped her?? Am I? Am I that selfish? I sure do sounds selfish!

You guys may think I'm nuts here, I am really. Haha. But you're not in my shoes, You don't know how I feel. What if your bestfriend have to go miles and miles away? Nah! What do you feel about it? I'm sure you're just gonna say, well. I'm gonna be cool with it! Well, thats shit! You didn't feel the real thing. I am feeling the real thing her, Excuse me!

Letting her go is like being amputated. I'm losing my right hand. My right leg. My right eyes. My right ears. My right arm.

Wanna know how much she meant to me? Oh my god! I sounded like a lesbian right now! Okay, everytime I feel, discovers, like, or learn something new I would just pick up the phone and text her or call her. But with the distance across the globe how can I do that??? HOW???? *question markSSSS!

She knows my secrets, she knows every single teeny tiny itsy bitsy thing of ME! She is where I turn to when I have problems, or sharing my joy! She's everything to me! She's one the best friend I ever had! ( I have 2 bestfriend!) hehehe

It's kinda like I'm lost without her! I'm crazy. You guys might think I'm a noob or an idiot or whatever you may or may not say! But this is how I feel.

She is not the kind of friend that make irritated faces or get annoyed when I nagged or what. She heard me! Again...SHE HEARD ME! *cus some of you just tell me to 'Oh, just shut up and move on bitch!' Nadiah is not like that at all!

So, you see. Being my friend is a challenge. Because I am unexpected! In a split second I am up to the most idiotic thing! Hahaha. Yesterday Nadiah and I went to the funfair, I forced her into riding this ride, it is calle THE LETHAL WEAPON! Hahaha.. It was a FUN ride. But she shivered till the end! Hahaha. I was gigling and did a little cursing to the ride. I said, 'make it stop! make it stop idiot!' haha. Pardon, I'm sorry. I lost my sense on the ride.

We really have so much fun together. Her going to yaman means less fun! I told a friend about this. he said just let her go with open heart. Pray for her safe-being. Pray that it would easy for her to study there, Pray for her!

At first, I told him that he is an idiot that just made me feel even worse! But come to sense of it, I think he's right! Thanks Topek! hehe.

So, instead of crying and mourning I should be happy for her! Because as a friend, a GOOD! BETTER! BEST! Friend.. Her Joy is my Joy and her tears is my tears! I love you Naddy! You will be my forever Munhckin Cupcake!!!

Oh ya! Here is some of my memory of her before she left!